Friday, June 19, 2009

Oh the Humanity!!!!!!!

Ok, so I'm about to venture into the world of weightloss. Um, yeah......(crickets chirping).

(I need to insert this disclaimer: I am perfectly ok with my size 6 body - if I never lose weight again, I will happy. So I don't want anyone to read this post to think that body image should be based on your clothes size. It is all about you and what you want for your body and what is healthy. I want to be healthy and baby-ready, that's my purpose - not to make anyone think that their body is not good enough. Thank you, please continue)

Anyhoo. If you know me you'd be like, "What?" Because I am not overweight (really), but none of my clothes fit. NONE. They are either just a bit too small or too big. Their too big cause when my body exploded into the hypothyroidism body that it is today, I panicked and bought clothes that just were ridiculous.

I have to stop right here and give my little rant on hormones...I gained 15 pounds in 1 month because my thyroid decided to be a jerk and stop working. Those of you who feel my pain, give a little shout out. Yeah, it sucks. So I went from a size 4, swimsuit competition-ready body to Squishy (that's my lil nickname for myself now) in ONE MONTH! Did you hear me say ONE MONTH?! Quite a shocker. Oh, and this is the best part...4 months before my wedding!

Not cool, not cool at all. And I could not lose the weight because the doc couldn't get my dosage levels correct. Whatever. But the best part (really) is that I learned I have the best man in the whole wide world (if you are a regular reader you might already know this - I mention it just a bit). He never once made me feel like I wasn't pretty. He loved me for me. (Sigh, Tear).

So I made it through the wedding satisfied with my appearance and completely joyous over my marriage. I settled into newlyweddom and forgot (mostly) about my weight. Then summer came. Thank you swimsuits and 1000 degree weather. I think we should go back to Victorian times when realy women covered themselves from head to toe in the dead of summer. They never had to worry about a spare time. Despite that, I made it through last summer and promised myself that I would be back to my old self by next summer.

Well, here's next summer and guess what - no weightloss, none. This is way harder than I thought. I was under the impression that I could actually make myself work out on a regular basis (Oh how I kid). Um, didn't happen. I am spoiled, I admit it. I'm accostomed to haveing t0 7 years of training for swimsuit competition with an army drill sergeant as my trainer yelling at me for 6 hours a day. Because, I mean, once the cause of the Fear of God is gone - what's my motivation?

The motivation? Never, ever having to see my upper arms wave goodbye. Plus, the Hubs and I would like to become parents some time next year. And did you know you could gain like 50 pounds when you're pregnant? So I figure I need to get a head start because 50 pounds is enough without adding 15 more.

So I am starting WeightWatchers Online today. Mark your calendars. My goal is to be 15 lbs lighter by 01/01/10. Want to join me? Tell me your secrets? Got any good recipes or time saver tips? I am desperate people. You're looking at a diet (sorry, PI, weightloss) virgin. I have no idea what I am doing.

Well, here I go!


TheFancyFritter said...

Hey girl! I'm excited to hear about your venture! I need to do it too badly! I would like to lose 15 too! I know Lindsay did it before she got pregnant and lost about 15 or so! Tell me more about it..the cost, do you go to meetings, etc? You can email me ( or comment me on my blog. We need to catch up BIG time! Love ya cuz! :)

Lindsey said...

I need to get on that plan!